With Abortion, We鈥檙e More Than Empowered Warriors or Fragile Survivors

For Mother鈥檚 Day, my partner and 3-year-old daughter gifted me a bouquet of flowers and a new T-shirt that read 鈥淨uestion Authority, Not Your Mother.鈥� Printed in a thick font on an unattractive beige, the shirt is all 1970s earnestness, the cotton equivalent to a hippie placidly sipping chamomile. I appreciate the style and sentiment. But there鈥檚 something about the 鈥淣ot Your Mother鈥� message that rubs me the wrong way: When it comes to feminism, questioning previous generations is imperative.

It might seem counterintuitive, but it鈥檚 true.

This week, Alabama Gov. Kay Ivey signed into law a bill that would ban abortion in nearly any circumstance, including rape or incest. in Kentucky, Mississippi, Ohio, and Georgia.

Ivey is a White woman, which is less surprising than you鈥檇 think. Conservative White women have been doing plenty of damage as active members of the White supremacist patriarchy for quite a while, but most recently in their support for President Donald Trump and politician Roy Moore, both for whom White women voted in a majority to elect.

But liberal White women have had their issues, too. The typical narrative of abortion among conservatives is that it鈥檚 a crime being committed against an innocent, unborn baby; the guilty are the women and the abortion providers. Although that framing causes widespread harm with both its inaccuracy and emotional targeting, the narrative among liberal White women can also be harmful: that abortion is just a standard medical procedure people get every day. No, really, it鈥檚 empowering. No big deal. Be strong. Shout your abortion! (Just don鈥檛 cry about it.)

I鈥檓 not just pro-choice, I鈥檓 pro-abortion (really, have more), but there is this pervasive narrative on the left that people who oppose abortion only do it because they 鈥渉ate women鈥� and want to 鈥渃ontrol women鈥檚 bodies.鈥� Is it true?

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Considering the attack on abortion right now, this perspective feels necessary: It brings visibility, inspiration, and empowerment to not only the each year, but also to women who are pregnant and searching for answers. It鈥檚 a counter to the ghoulishness, a sort of shield to deflect the shame and fear being aggressively hurled by anti-choice activists. However, this perspective doesn鈥檛 always leave room for emotional complexity.

It鈥檚 true that the procedure usually brings relief to the person needing one, maybe sometimes a sense of joy and freedom. But abortion is also an experience of mixed emotions, which don鈥檛 go away once a person leaves the clinic and physically heals. Relief and happiness are common, but so are regret, guilt, sadness, and anger. And, of course, there are more emotions. As one , although 鈥渁 full 90% of women who were able to obtain an abortion reported that they were relieved,鈥� their personal feelings about it were 鈥渋ncredibly variable.鈥� That should be respected. It shouldn鈥檛 be a surprise.

For some reason, to many women it is. The same weekend I was gifted the flowers and T-shirt, I saw an email from a news service to which I subscribe. 鈥淭his Mother鈥檚 Day We鈥檙e Thanking Strong Moms Everywhere鈥� it sang out, the female editor in chief practically extending an invisible hand for a high-five. I sighed. I鈥檓 sick of having to be 鈥渟trong鈥�: a strong mom, a strong career woman, a strong voter, a strong partner, a strong daughter, a strong fighter for my rights as a human. It鈥檚 exhausting just writing that.

Celebrating only 鈥渟trong鈥� moms鈥攐r women and nonbinary people, for that matter鈥攄oesn鈥檛 advance the cause of feminism or gender equality. It enables the patriarchy. Women and nonbinary people are already taking on at work, at home, and everywhere else while getting paid less. We鈥檙e so often criticized as whiny or ungrateful when voicing our frustrations with this unfair system that we end up gaslighting or numbing ourselves, sometimes resulting in callous jokes about our abortions.

We can defend our rights to bodily autonomy and embrace our vulnerability. In fact, I think both are necessary to advancing gender equality and building a society that works for all. But we have to let die the old narrative of strong women versus weak women, because it鈥檚 false and further strips us of our humanity, at a time when we鈥檙e being stripped of our rights. When it comes to abortion, we鈥檙e more than empowered warriors or fragile survivors.